I didn't plan to take a two month break from blogging. It just happened. About a month into my break it started feeling really good. I was ready to just call it quits. Blogging was just another thing on a long "to do" list that was weighing me down. More accurately, blogging was just another thing I wasn't doing well. I was feeling like a failure at so many things that if I could cross one of them off the list I could lessen the guilt.
Don't get me wrong, I love blogging. And I love, love, love the friends I have made through blogging. I could never totally leave the blog world; at the very least I'd still read other blogs. But then it's more of a one-sided conversation. You do all the sharing and I just sit there with an occasional nod of agreement. How boring!
Another thing that I noticed on my break was that I was missing opportunities to capture the moment. I'd go days and days without picking up the camera. And then I'd beat myself up: "Why didn't I take a picture of that?" Regardless of whether this should a blogger's motivation, when you're actively blogging, you take a picture of everything because it could end up being the next post. I missed taking a picture of everything. I haven't scrapbooked in more than a decade (has it really been that long?!), so this blog helps me remember.
All this to say, I'm back. I'm still working through what direction I want this blog to take. Part of the reason I struggled with blogging is because my original purpose was to record our homeschooling and autism adventures, but I when it came down to writing those posts I was often uninspired. I'd like to expand the scope of my little corner of cyber space, and share more of what's been on my heart the last several months. I'm even considering making some changes to the blog itself, but we'll see. Step one is just ending the hibernation.